Thursday, June 30
fate makes such fools out of us.the reason i'm online about 10 hours before my math paper [for which i'm screwed, by the way, but to hell with it]? chris called. and, ironically, i was in the bathroom doing my legs. ironical because she was the one who introduced me to hair-removal cream. anyway. damnit. i missed her call. can you believe it? i can't. i can't. oh gosh i'm so frustrated with myself now. i could've brought the damned phone with me, couldn't i? but i didn't. oh shit, i miss her so much. and when i tried to call back i couldn't get through. :( maybe it'd be better if i didn't have caller id. after all, isn't ignorance bliss? i could be sleeping peacefully right now. :( nevermind. fate will be.
hmm econs = blanking out. history = history. read: i am dead. i wrote a one-sided argument [worth about 1 digit out of 25 marks] for one essay, and made up facts and countries for both. worse, i think i know why. because i only started last night. and slept past midnight, only to find myself awake 3 times in the middle of the night. ever had that experience, where you suddenly realise you're actually awake? you don't open your eyes. they're already open. then you turn over, check your phone and swear at the world. so yeah. therefore the disorientation that led to my strange history experience. this is just an excuse. oh -math. went to serene centre to mug math after history. saw loads of st marg's girls as usual. they're getting so tiny. anyway. had about 2 panic attacks hahaha i think i freaked candy and yinghong out. because my math sucks, i was worrying about being irrational in my previous papers and basically i'm just bad at math. yes. i'm banking on lit. oh God please let me pass lit.
i heard a whiter shade of pale on the radio this afternoon!! =D hee. i was like hmm the harmony is very familar.. it sounds like a whiter shade of pale.. did david lanz steal that tune or was the it other way around? then i listened closely to the words and realised someone was singing something about a whiter shade of pale. oh well. hahaha.
i cannot stop myself from smiling for no rhyme or reason whenever i catch her eye. seriously i should box my own face. i mean, she's not even hot anymore, what am i smiling at? but when our gazes meet i am suddenly compelled to smile. does that explain my sometimes rather odd expression? the one where i look like i'm in pain cos i'm trying not to laugh/smile.
siti called this morning after my paper cos i was whining to her about my stupidity. jean called too. hahaha sorry i really am very stupid. anyway we've discussed some things and yeah i'll be going for guides tmr in order to fulfil a couple of things. plus i miss everyone!! stupid sam isn't going. heh. oh no i don't think i can remember a lot of the things we thought of during the camp. shucks.
in the course of a lifetime, what would this matter? and what am i to you, little, much or - nothing?hey, remember.. chris eats everything. are you everything to her? hahahahah okay random thought.
it must've been love.
10:39 pm
xoxo
